Fanmix & Picspam Combo Meal!

These songs (and screencaps) are roughly in chronological order–but there’s a kind of a lot of room to move around in these songs–several of them can apply to Spuffy at different times.

1. Someday You Will Be Loved -Death Cab for Cutie

(I like to think this is the song Angel listens to while he thinks about Spuffy.)

I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth.
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read:
Someday you will be loved.

You’ll be loved, you’ll be loved
Like you never have known.
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams,
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved.
—

2. Deathly-Aimee Mann
Now that I’ve met you
Would you object to
Never seeing each other again?

Cause I’m just a problem
For you to solve and
Watch dissolve in the heat of your charm.

You’re on your honor
‘Cause I’m a goner
And you haven’t even begun.
So do me a favor:
If I should waver,
Be my savior
And get out the gun.

Just don’t work your stuff
Because I’ve got troubles enough.
No, don’t pick on me
When one act of kindness could be
Deathly
Deathly
Definitely
—

3. Keep It Loose, Keep It Tight-Amos Lee

I’m in love with a girl
Who’s in love with the world,
Though I can’t help but follow.
Though I know someday,
She is bound to go away,
And stay over the rainbow.
Gotta learn how to let her go.
Over the rainbow.

Sometimes we forget who we got,
Who they are. Oh, who they are not.
There is so much more in love
Than black and white.
Keep it loose child,
Gotta keep it tight.

—

Release-Pearl Jam

Can you see me now?
I am myself,
Like you somehow.
I’ll wait up in the dark
For you to speak to me.
I’ll open up,
Release me.

—

5. Part One-Band of Horses

The bottom of the earth I had to fall
But you really caught me,
You really caught me, dear
At the bottom where I’d fallen.

Slowly, dear, ask would you dance with me.
Here with the shades down. The lights all off.
When I didn’t know you
And everything I do
Done badly.

Now I’ll love you always
Even when I say
You distract me.

—

6. To Be Alone with You-Sufjan Stevens

I’d swim across lake Michigan
I’d sell my shoes
I’d give my body to be back again
In the rest of the room

To be alone with you

You gave your body to the lonely
They took your clothes
You gave up a wife and a family
You gave your goals

To be alone with me

—

7. Low Rising-Swell Season

I want to sit you down and talk.
I want to pull back the veils
And find out what it is I’ve done wrong.
I want to tear these curtains down,
I want you to meet me somewhere tonight in this old
tourist town.

And we’ll go low rising.
Cause we’ve gotta come up, we’ve gotta come up
‘Cause there’s no further for us to fall
‘Cause I feel we’ve had enough
And we’re, Low rising
All for the love of you

I want to take you to the rock
I want to jump right in and see what that big oceans got
I want to turn this thing around
I want to drink with you all night until we both fall down

‘Til we go low rising
Cause we’ve gotta come up we’ve gotta come up
Cause there’s no further for us to fall
‘Til I feel we’ve had enough
And we’re Low rising
All for the love of you

I wanna sit you down and talk
I wanna sit you down and talk about it now
—

8. Privilege (Set Me Free)-Patti Smith

I see it all before me:
the days of love and torment;
the nights of rock-and-roll.
I see it all before me.
Sometimes my spirit’s empty;
don’t have the will to go on.
I wish someone would send me
energy.

Give me something.
Give me something to give.
Oh, God, give me something:
a reason to live.
My body is aching.
Don’t want sympathy.
Come on. Come and love me.
Come on. Set me free.
Set me free.

In the presence of my enemies,
Thou anointest my head with oil.
My cup runneth over.
Surely, goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life.
And I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Ah, damn, goddamn, goddamn, goddamn.
Here I am.
—

9. Your Legs Grow-Nada Surf

If you were here,
Baby, we’d increase the dose.
There was no fear in my room
When we got close.
Call me anytime
You’ve got a ghost.

You’re the only person in the world
I feel that way about.
If you move off to the side,
I’ll get swept back out.

There’s a light that rises up
From the bottom of the lake.
And its beam has hit me hard;
Now I’m wide awake.

—

10. Magdalena-A Perfect Circle

Overcome by your moving temple
Overcome by this holiest of altars

I bear witness to this place,
This prayer, so long forgotten
So pure, so rare
To witness such an earthly goddess

That I’d sell my soul,
My self-esteem a dollar at a time
For one chance, one kiss,
One taste of you, my black Madonna

—

11. Blinding-Florence + the Machine

Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state
A tourist in the waking world, never quite awake.
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realize that it was you who held me under.

Felt it in my fist, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids
Shaking through my skull, through my spine, and down through my ribs

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love with the wrong world

And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack.
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
‘Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn right open.
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken.

And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open.

—

12. Perfect Drug-Nine Inch Nails

I got my head, but my head is unraveling.
Can’t keep control, can’t keep track of where it’s traveling
I got my heart, but my heart is no good,
And you’re the only one that’s understood.

I come along but I don’t know where you’re taking me
I shouldn’t go but you’re reaching, dragging, shaking me.
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die.

And I want you.

You are the perfect drug.

Without you, everything falls apart.
Without you, it’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces.

—

13. The Twist-Frightened Rabbit

Did you blush then when our hips touched?
I can’t tell, we’re already red.

You twist and whisper the wrong name
I don’t care nor do my ears
Twist yourself around me
I need company, I need human heat
I need human heat

Lets pretend I’m attractive and then
You won’t mind, you can twist for a while
It’s the night, I can be who you like
And I’ll quietly leave before it gets light

So twist and whisper the wrong name
I don’t care nor do my ears
Twist yourself around me
I need company, I need human heat
I need human heat

Twist and whisper the right name
I’m David, please
The twist is that you’re just like me–
You need company, you need human heat
You need human heat

—

14. Bad Habit-The Dresden Dolls

and you might say it’s self-indulgent
and you might say it’s self-destructive
but, you see, it’s more productive
than if I were to be happy

—

15. Drumming Song-Florence + the Machine

There’s a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you’re around
I swear that you could hear it,
It makes such an almighty sound

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

I run to the river and dive straight in
I pray that the water will drown out the din
But as the water fills my mouth
It couldn’t wash the echoes out

I swallow the sound and it swallows me whole
Till there’s nothing left inside my soul
As empty as that beating drum
But the sound has just begun

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

—

16. Backwards Walk-Frightened Rabbit

I’m working on my faults and cracks–
filling in the blanks and gaps.
And when I write them out, they don’t make sense–
I need you to pencil in the rest.

I’m working on drawing a straight line
and I’ll draw until I get one right.
It’s bold and dark, girl, can’t you see?
I done drawn a line between you and me.

I’m working on erasing you,
just don’t have the proper tools.
I get hammered, forget that you exist–
there’s no way I’m forgetting this.

I’m working hard on walking out,
shoes keep sticking to the ground.
My clothes won’t let me close the door,
these trousers seem to love your floor.

I been working on my backwards walk,
there’s nowhere else for me to go
except back to you just one last time–
say yes before I change my mind.

Say yes before I…
You’re the shit and I’m knee-deep in it.

—

17. Impossible-The Shout Out Louds

Impossible. Your love is something I cannot remember.

I don’t want to spend another day in this city.
I woke up thirsty, it’s hard to go back, you know.
Let’s not fall back to sleep like we used to, do you remember?
I don’t want to wake up knowing I don’t have a future.

Stay out of love until you’re ready, stay out of it ’cause it scares you.
You’ll still find your love outside the public library.

I know it could happen to you.

—

18. Sleeping Beauty-A Perfect Circle

Delusional, I believed I could cure it
All for you dear, coax or trick or drive or
Drag the demons from you, make it right for you
Sleeping beauty, truly thought I could magically heal you

Far beyond a visible
Sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to
Rescue

Sleeping
Beauty

Drunk on ego, truly thought I could make it right if I
Kissed you one more time to help you face the nightmare, but you’re
Far too poisoned for me. Such a fool to think that I could
Wake you from your slumber, that I could actually heal you.

—

19. Half Jack-The Dresden Dolls

and when I’m brave enough and find a clever way to kick him out,
and I’m so high not even you and all your love could bring me down–
on 83rd he never found the magic words to change this fact:
I’m half jill
and half jack

—

20. Die Alone-Ingrid Michaelson

I’m just a stranger, even to myself
A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf
Don’t be a fool girl, tell him you love him
Don’t be a fool girl, you’re not above him

Kiss the boys as they walk by, call me their baby
But little do they know, I’m just a maybe
Maybe my baby will be the one to leave me sore
Maybe my baby will settle the score

I never thought I could love anyone but myself
Now I know I can’t love anyone but you
You make me think that maybe I won’t die alone
Maybe I won’t die alone

What have I become?
Something soft and really quite dumb
‘Cause I’ve fallen, oh, ’cause I’ve fall-fallen, oh ’cause I’ve fall-fall-fallen
So far away from the place where I started from

—

21. Hate Me-Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you
So I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach,
Leaving babies in my bed.
Dropping little reels of tape
To remind me that I’m alone.
Playing movies in my head
That make a porno feel like home.

There’s a burning in my pride,
A nervous bleeding in my brain.
An ounce of peace is all I want for you,
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me
Just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me,
it is I that wanted this

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

—

22. Asking for It-Hole

Every time that I sell myself to you
I feel a little bit cheaper than I need to
I will tear the petals off of you
Rose-red, I will make you tell the truth

Was she asking for it?
Was she asking nice?
Did she ask you for it?
Did she ask you twice?

If you live through this with me, I swear that I will die for you.
And if you live through this with me, I swear that I will die for you.

—

23. Corner of Your Heart-Ingrid Michaelson

There’s a corner of your heart for me
There’s a corner of your heart just for me
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart
Just to stay in the corner of your heart

There is room beneath your bed for me
There is room beneath your bed just for me
I will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed
Just to sleep underneath your bed

There’s one minute of your day
There’s one minute of your day
I will leave this man just to occupy one minute of your day
Just to occupy one minute of your day
Just to sleep underneath your bed
Just to stay in the corner of you heart

—

24. Blindsided-Bon Iver

I crouch like a crow,
Contrasting the snow
For the agony, I’d rather know
‘Cause blinded, I am blindsided.

Peek in… into the peer in.
I’m not really like this… I’m probably plightless

Would you really rush out for me now?

Taut line… down to the shoreline
The end of a blood line… the moon is a cold light.

—

25. We’re In This Together-Nine Inch Nails

I’ve become impossible.
Holding on to when
when everything seemed to matter more.
The two of us–
all used and beaten up–
watching fate as it flows down the path we
have chose.

The farther I fall, I’m beside you.
As lost as I get, I will find you.
The deeper the wound, I’m inside you.
For ever and ever I’m a part of…

You and me,
we’re in this together now.
None of them can stop us now.
We will make it through somehow.
You and me,
if the world should break in two.
Until the very end of me,
until the very end of you.

—

26. Need You Around-Smoking Popes

If I could stand to be on my own
Then I would probably just leave you alone
But I’m gonna feel this way till I’m six feet underground
Crazy as it sounds,
I need you around

Turning, tossing and turning
My love is burning me down

—
27. Parachute-Ingrid Michaelson

I don’t tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don’t tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won’t tell anybody
Won’t tell anybody
They wanna push me down, they wanna see you fall down

Won’t tell anybody that you turn the world around
I won’t tell anyone that your voice is my favorite sound
I won’t tell anybody
Won’t tell anybody
They wanna see us fall, they wanna see us fall down

Don’t believe the things you tell yourself so late at night
You are your own worst enemy, you’ll never win the fight
Just hold on to me, I’ll hold on to you
It’s you and me up against the world, it’s you and me

I don’t believe anything, don’t trust anyone anymore
But I believe you when you say we’re never gonna fall
Hand behind my neck, arm around my waist
Never let me hit the ground, you’ll never let me crash down

I don’t need a parachute, baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you, I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me, you’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down.

—

28. Rock ‘N’ Roll Suicide-David Bowie

Oh no, love! You’re not alone!
You’re watching yourself, but you’re too unfair
You got your head all tangled up, but if I could only make you care
Oh no, love! You’re not alone!
No matter what or who you’ve been
No matter when or where you’ve seen
All the knives seem to lacerate your brain
I’ve had my share, I’ll help you with the pain
You’re not alone

Just toil on with me, and you’re not alone
Let’s turn on and be not alone
Gimme your hands ’cause you’re wonderful
Gimme your hands ’cause you’re wonderful
Oh, gimme your hands.

—

29. I’ll Be Your Mirror-The Velvet Underground with Nico

I’ll be your mirror
Reflect what you are, in case you don’t know
I’ll be the wind, the rain, and the sunset
The light on your door, to show that you’re home

I find it hard to believe you don’t know
The beauty that you are
But if you don’t, let me be your eyes
A hand in your darkness, so you won’t be afraid

When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you’re twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
‘Cause I see you

I’ll be your mirror

—

30. Walls-The Rocket Summer

And you got nowhere else to go
And you’re lost within your own home,
And you’re trying so hard to win,
You keep trying, it’s embarrassing.
And how you don’t even know,
But you know you’re off the tracks…
And how did you get in here
Thinking, ‘how did I get in here’?

I’ll help you break the walls down.
I’ll help you break the walls down…
Bust you out, take you home.
Believe you me, you are not alone.
I’ll help you break the walls down.

—

31. The Weight of Us-Sanders Bohlke

There are theives who rob us blind,
and kings who kill us fine,
but steady, the rights and the wrongs
invade us, as innocent as song.

I’m not ready, I’m not ready
For the weight of us, for the weight of us, for the weight of all of us.

There’s a cold heart buried beneath,
and warm blood running deep.
Secrets are mine to keep,
protected by silent sleep.

I’m not ready, I’m not ready
for the weight of us, for the weight of us
for the weight of us, for the weight of all of us

The time has come, let us be brave….
Shake off all of your sins, the time has come, let us be brave, let us be brave